Diagnoses Day. 12/29/16. The most dreaded day of the year for me. The dread starts about November and goes all the way through December. I avoid my FB memories leading up to Christmas because Gabriel was sick, and we thought it was just a normal virus. Now looking back at the pictures I can fully […]
Five Years
There’s a part of me that wishes I could skip this day. Not even give it a second thought. To skip the anxiety, trauma, and PTSD, that has haunted me every day since. Jacob told me last night that he thinks about the best days, like Gabe’s last day of chemo, and when we got […]
It Finally Got Us
The past week has been rough around the Howard household. Daniel had the flu, (type A) and then gave it to me. Normally, this would be an annoying but manageable thing, but since our youngest is still in treatment for Leukemia, it became a larger concern. Our doctor told us that if anyone in the […]
12 Chapters, 365 Chances
We went into 2017 with uncertainty and fear, {with Gabe’s Leukemia diagnoses} but we held on to the hope that God had a plan for it all. 2017 has been a year of struggle and grief. We lost my Nanny, and we’ve had to watch Gabe go through some intense chemotherapy and numerous procedures. We […]
One Year Later
I’ve been dreading this date. December 29th, 2017. It’s been exactly one year since our whole world was turned upside down and stopped. It’s been one year since I watched a team of doctors enter our hospital room with that look and know it isn’t good news they are bringing. One year since my youngest […]
Christmas Traditions
This year has been a roller coaster of emotions. As most of you already know and follow our story, our youngest son was diagnosed with Leukemia right after Christmas last year. He is in Remission and while we are so thankful for that, we still have a year and a half left of treatments. We […]
The Seer, Book One of The Kalila Chronicles
On a blog post a few years ago, I posted about how I wasn’t a fan of change. Now a few years later, that’s still true to an extent. Positive change and growth should always be something that we strive to do. If we’re not changing and growing then we are stagnate, perhaps even […]
#GabeStrong Continuation Week 14
{106 weeks to go} We had a photo shoot at St. Jude this morning for them to possibly use for fundraising! Gabe was excited until he had to put on a hoodie that they wanted him to wear and then he refused to get his picture made by himself. 🙄 We ended up getting a […]
#GabeStrong – Continuation Week 11
{109 weeks to go} Another weekly visit to St. Jude has come and gone. I realized that I was writing “mini blogs” on my Facebook posts instead of posting here. I apologize! Gabe had his routine lab draw, nurse and doctor visit, followed up with chemo in the med room. His counts were a little […]
#GabeStrong (Consolidation) Day 6-27
Sometimes your greatest fear can become your biggest blessing. Sounds crazy right? No one wants their greatest fear, the thing that they are afraid of the most, to come to pass. The idea of it sends your heart racing and makes you break out in a cold sweat. The very pit of your stomach turns into […]
